Hologram Reality

Originally written 09-01-2015

What I think of  now is the nature of reality, which I suppose is a general enough subject to include anything I want. Yesterday, I read of quantum particles/waveforms. Nothing is a particle until an interaction forces it to behave so; until such a time occurs, it is simply a wave-form of possibility. Regardless, the article suggested that a choice not yet made by an observer in the future would affect the particles behavior. They were able to, I guess, scientifically “prove” that this did occur. From my perspective, this means that either the choice made by the observer was influenced by the particle, or that the choice was predetermined before the experiment ever started.

Assuming the universe runs on strictly-defined and unwavering physical principles, I then make the case that all information in the universe is readable from a single atom. From the beginning of our known universe all particles have fallen under the rule of these constant physical properties. According to our understanding the fundamental forces are gravitational, electromagnetic, and the strong and weak nuclear. Since the creation of any type of information in our universe all energy/matter has been under the constant influence of these interactions. We see these forces as separate and unique, but at one time they may all have been unified. Prior to energy assimilating into particle structure I do not know what could have been, but I’m assuming that since then all matter in our universe has been under the influence of these forces.

Because these forces are fundamental and never-changing, one could postulate that nothing in the universe could be as it is unless everything before had been as it was…paradoxical, yes, but everything is. Fractals in fractals. If it were possible to get absolute measurements of any object, and if there was enough data and processing power behind it, one could extrapolate everything that ever had been from that single measurement. This could only exist in This state with This position, This spin, etc., had everything else existed the way it had. The entirety of the universe is held from the largest perspective down to the smallest.

A fact that may come from this is that even acts of biologically “living” creatures are just a part of this measurable and completely law-abiding universe, for our own biology was formed by these fundamental interactions. The formation of the first organic compounds began reacting with each other which then built upon those reactions and created further diversity, ALWAYS evolving in-sync with all else. “Living” creatures are certainly more far-removed from these fundamental interactions as they move themselves; they experience and build upon those experiences to make choices, but they could not respond to a stimulus unless that stimulus was created; that stimulus has it’s roots in the instant the universe was born. Humans don’t consider stars to have choice. They have a life-cycle, but as we believe in personal choice we also believe stars do not have choice. They are at the whim of their surroundings just reacting to whatever occurs. What if conscious thought is not “conscious” at all?

From the moment organisms begin developing they are bombarded with stimuli. Heat, sounds, movement, etc.; people understand basically that these things are occurring and that these things affect the development of any organism. We don’t often consider the true immense amount of stimuli affecting the development of an organism. Gravity from every piece of matter in the universe exerts force in different amounts on every other piece of matter in the universe. So again, the entirety of the universe shapes, from the beginning, the development of the organism.

Suppose the organism is a human. They have DNA; DNA that has evolved over billions of years to produce the modern homo sapiens. After a fetus begins developing the way in which it’s genes are expressed is inseparable from the external environment in which it resides. It draws everything from it’s own DNA, yet it’s expression is completely unique. Even identical twins – who share completely identical DNA – are made completely unique the moment they split, as they are now experiencing, if only slightly, different stimuli. These minute differences affect how the neurons develop, they affect how their genetics are expressed.

As there is no separation of development from environment, and as the environment was predetermined by the past, then the resulting expression of these stimuli is inevitable and predetermined. “Personalities” are expressions of an intricate stimulus-response interaction, which were built upon infinite stimulus-response interactions which are all predicated by fundamental interactions of particles. The majority of a humans life is sustained by subconscious processes. The brain works for self-preservation without “conscious” intervention. For many forms of life, it takes much more than just sitting idly and living…they must MOVE to survive. Must seek food, must seek water. Conscious thought is a brain’s manifestation of it’s need to be able to measure it’s surroundings and respond to them in a way that will ensure it’s host survives.

Most creatures do not need much thought to sustain themselves, as their environments are simple in comparison to humans; their brains do not manifest consciousness in the same way. As humans began living in larger communities and changing their environment to suite their needs for survival, their brains had to develop more to react to these intricate external stimuli. As an organism becomes more aware of it’s environment and interacts in more intricate ways, the brain must manifest consciousness in more intricate and abstract ways to deal with this awareness. At some point the brain’s abstract consciousness became able to override and alter the way external stimuli are processed. The consciousness manifested by a brain’s need to survive and respond to it’s environment can even CHANGE how the brain perceives it’s environment and, not only that, the abstract consciousness created by the brain can consciously decide how to define personal self-preservation.

This abstract consciousness can override self-preservation or redefine it entirely for a person’s biology by believing that their “self” persists beyond their death. In this way the organisms self-preservation is made absolute, and instead of living to self-preserve their abstract consciousness can decide for itself what purpose to have, even denying their immediate survival or comfort in favor of abstract ideas spurred from social influences. I believe almost everyone lives in some gray-area between believing in the persistence of their self forever and believing upon death that their self ends absolutely. Most living creatures are unable to conceive their own end.

Ramblings – Procrastination

Originally written 08-28-2015

Motivation is a hard thing for me to come by. I don’t know if this is because things have always been easy for me or because I don’t want much. Whatever the underlying cause…I do not like it. The past few months I have been jobless, working rarely here and there, but not spending my time working toward a goal or developing new skills…just slowly eating away at my savings. Today is my third day without cannabis, and luckily I don’t feel withdrawal symptoms as much as I did the last time I stopped; I’m not sure if this is because my body is less attuned to it this time around or some other reason, but I’m hoping I can use it to catalyze some type of change in my life. I know the only motivation people have comes from their own power of will, but most of the power of will and my determination in my life came from fear of punishment either from parents or some deity, and now that I have no fear of either I have lost my cause to strive. Not only that, but now that I’m conscious that my life is in my hands, I feel an overwhelming obligation to find out EXACTLY what I should do with it. I make no choice for my future because of how many choices get cut-off by making any choice…what a horrible catch-22 I’ve trapped myself into. Reminds me of the film “Ex-machina” when the main characters speak regarding a painting. The artist painted it with no clear plan in mind, yet each stroke of the brush was performed, and thus carried out with intent. One man then questions the other about the artist…perhaps the artist had gone the other route. What if the artist had decided not to paint anything unless he knew exactly WHY he painted it. Well, the artist would never paint anything, because nobody truly understands exactly why we make any of our decisions. So I sit…and think…because I’m alive and I’m healthy and if that is true then why do I need to do anything else? After-all, the past is unchangeable and the future is abstract, and in every moment of now that I experience I am still alive and well and feel no need to change anything.

Ramblings – soon to be re-formatted

Originally written 08-06-2015

First time I’m writing somewhat purposefully to save and possibly post later. Strange. As such, I have no idea what to write about. I was going to stop smoking weed but instead hit the bong this morning. Perhaps that will be my last hit for the next couple weeks. I want to get my dreams back, and that won’t happen if I continue getting high. For some reason I feel as though I’ve learned meditation is more effective sober…but that might just be the fact that almost everything can be remembered and integrated by the brain more easily sober (no reference). List of things I want to do more of or get better at:
-exercise
-stretching
-web design
-creative writing
-socializing
-meditation
-reading
-learning
-eating healthier
-recognizing different emotions
-self-control
-setting goals

That list ended up being a longer than I initially intended. Let’s examine my list one-by-one and see what happens.

Exercise: most important thing for humans besides what we breathe and ingest. The majority of  mankind has always had to exert great physical effort – great compared to today’s standards – to survive or do anything else until just 15,000 years or so ago. We evolved over millions of years to sweat more efficiently to cool down from all the running and exertion we were doing day after day. The body cannot function optimally without exercise because it was not designed to.

Stretching: painful, uncomfortable. The body having a full-range of motion is important. Less injuries. I think my bowed legs inhibit certain stretches. Touching my toes and my straddle are two I believe are affected by their bowed-ness(?).

Web Design: design my own blog. Work remotely.

Creative writing: I’d like to be able to convey the incredible sights in my mind in a coherent way. Tell good stories.

Socializing: as with exercise humans developed as a highly social society with intricate relationships and interactions on a daily basis. We have hormones and chemicals which are linked directly to eye contact, touch, cooperation. If you haven’t already, research Oxytocin.

Meditation: so much good stuff about meditation. Keeps your brain elastic, improves concentration, delays loss of senses due to age, improves memory, increases chances of lucid dreaming

Reading/Learning: combined these two because they usually end up going hand-in-hand. Reading itself can be a form of meditation or visualization, in fact when done well it can enhance recollection and comprehension of content which has a great effect on learning. You can read to learn many things, and experiencing a world somebody else created is fun as well. Learning, specifically, keeps our minds young instead of stagnating. Our brains give us great ability to learn. To adapt. When we stop our mind stops and we stop changing. Also, why not be able to do as many different things as possible?? Thicken every area of your brain.

Eating healthier: Our bodies run on the food we eat. We are so much more than just proteins and energy. Our bodies require many different minerals and vitamins to function properly. We developed shorter digestive tracts and smaller jaws because we began cooking our food, but our food by volume was still mainly made up of vegetation softened by cooking.

Recognizing different emotions: the better I am able to notice when I’m feeling what, the better I will be able to figure out why and have a much better understanding of what effects me positively or negatively.

Self-control: you are a slave to your body’s addictions and chemical desires unless you have the power to recognize and override it’s compulsions.

Setting goals: without goals or deadlines I tend to nap for long periods of time or what I would consider wasting my day away playing games or watching tv.

First

My initial intention creating this site was to create a space for me to share my thoughts. Like anyone else, I think what I believe is true, and I wish to share my views in the hope that people can understand the thought and logic behind my beliefs.

An unchallenged belief is worthless. You must constantly challenge what you “know” in order to shed the widely-accepted lies and obfuscations that permeate humanity